Improving our posture can benefit us on so many levels. Body, mind, energy and emotions all improve. And Yoga can support us in creating and even enhance these benefits. Yoga, when done with body awareness, alignment and understanding anatomy and physiology, not only improves posture, it improves our whole sense of wellbeing and living.

It’s obvious that improving our posture improves how we feel.
A healthy posture gives us resilience in our spine, the ability to breathe fully, move freely and experience wellbeing.

Posture improvement affects
  • Breathing
  • Flow of nerve communication
  • Health of organs
  • Digestive processes
  • Musculoskeletal health
  • Stress resiliency
  • Sleep
  • Hormonal balance
  • Feelings of wellbeing, wellness and energy

How bad posture affects our body

We all shrink as we age, but some of us not so old, are already shrinking due to bad posture. Now shrinking isn’t important to some of us, but it does have detrimental physiological effects.
One of the most important is that decreased height causes the vertebral discs to lose moisture and dry out. When our discs are plump and juicy, they keep our spine flexible and absorb any shock.
When discs dry out they become flat and thin, being less supple they are prone to injury and degeneration leading to chronic back pain, neck pain, headaches. This is the perfect setting for other issues related to spinal degeneration, think neck, shoulders, arms, hips and legs. As soft tissue weakens it’s less resistant to gravity and life’s push and pulls.

But have you ever stopped wander to what degree that spills over to, or how it affects every part of our, body, mind and self?
Well let’s only look at what benefits posture improvement has on our physical body.

The many benefits of posture improvement

When the trunk is well supported by strong core muscles, joints and ligaments, and the limbs work in congruency with each other and in conjunction with the core, all our vital organs are fully supported. This allows our organs to work in harmony with each other so that each is well nourished by healthy blood, oxygen and nutrient supplies.
Just think about the kidneys, adrenals, heart, lungs, and liver.
Healthy kidneys holds our sense of strength through clearing toxins and keeping us vitalised. Our adrenals fill our sense of ability through regulating our activity and resting times. They give us the courage to act when invited and the calm to know when we need to retreat.
When our heart is fully supported we have a good blood supply, circulation and sense of respond-ability. The lungs when totally supported can open fully to breathe deep and enliven our entire bodily system with breathe, oxygen and spaciousness. All the muscles around these organs are massaged and nurtured, which trckles down to all connected organs and tissues.
Our liver performs more than 3000 functions. 500 of those are essential tasks to keep us healthy. Giving our liver a wide range of movement through diverse exercise and bodily movement, our liver is more than happy to serve all it’s purposes. The liver directs all the metabolism and detoxification.

Primary tasks of the liver are:
  • Bile production and excretion 
  • Excretion of bilirubin, cholesterol, hormones, and drugs 
  • Metabolism of fats, proteins, and carbohydrates 
  • Enzyme activation 
  • Storage of glycogen, vitamins, and minerals 
  • Synthesis of plasma proteins, such as albumin, and clotting factors 
  • Blood detoxification and purification

Not only that but the surrounding tissues, joints and nerves, are also endowed with this generous supply of life giving properties. Every single cell and system of our body is affected by our posture. Each cell’s ability to regulate and maintain internal balance is affected, for better or for worse.

Movement, breath and Yoga for posture

Wide ranging bodily movement that caters to moving all the body parts in all directions creates for support of surrounding tissues and organs through healthy posture, and the nourishment from good circulation a a healthy heart. Allowing our muscles, bones, nerves and joints to get the right kind of movement and freedom which leads to general wellbeing and maintenance.
Any of these affect not just our physical sense of wellbeing but also our mood, energy levels and place in the world. When our hormonal and nervous system function well, we have strong immunity, we have a clear mind, our rhythms of sleep and wakefulness are in harmony too.

According to researchers John Lennon and Norman Shealy in their article in American Journal of Pain Management:
“posture affects every physiological function from breathing to hormonal production. Spinal pain, headache, mood, blood pressure, pulse, and lung capacity are among the functions most easily influenced by posture.
The most significant influences of posture are upon respiration, oxygenation, and sympathetic function. Ultimately, it appears that homeostasis and autonomic regulation are intimately connected with posture. The corollary of these observations is that many symptoms, including pain, may be moderated or eliminated by improved posture.”

When we have a upright and harmonious stance in body, in relation to our world, we have a healthy stance in life.
Its really that simple and powerful.
Improve posture and improve your entire physiology.

So what is posture improvement?

Its an upright spine held, supported and lithe with all ligaments, tendons, fascia, and other connective tissue, working as one. Not just a straight back, but one who honours its natural curves. And a mind who can inhabit through awareness our embodied experience.
It’s a body whose many systems; nervous, endocrine, immune, digestive, circulatory, respiratory, muscular and connective, function as a whole. It communicates and integrates all experiences. It can express itself with as much ease as the spine is supple and juicy.
In yoga we say, We are only as healthy as our spine.

And our spine is only as healthy as we allow it to move in all its many directions; sideways, backward, forward, twisted or extended. That’s why yoga is so powerful, it moves the spine in all it’s potential positions, postures and the combined possibilities of these.
Just like our bodies and minds, our lives can only be as whole as its range of movement and freedom, so our posture leads to health of body, mind and soul, through every cell and system.

Let’s reclaim our wellbeing!

Namaste, and much love to You, your cells and your Soul,


One Yoga Pose to Feel Empowered, Uplifted, Improve Energy and Relationships

One Yoga Pose to Feel Empowered, Uplifted, Improve Energy and Relationships

“Since emotions run every system in the body, don’t underestimate their power to treat and heal.”

– Candace Pert. 

How powerful that feeling of total bliss or joy is when we’re elated, delighted and excited all rolled into one. It gives us energy and motivation to do incredible things with ease and confidence.  

Or equally devastating those depths of despair, where happiness seems unimaginable and each step a steep mountainside. Every little bump or challenge sucks our life energy right out of us.
Both these states are due to our emotions. The last months we’ve explored how emotions work and affect our mental states, and vice versa. This week it’s how do emotions affect our energy. And what we can do to reclaim that power and direct it with Yoga and mindfulness.

A Brief History of Energy in Motion

The E-word in the world of science and medicine, Candace Pert joked, for what can’t be measured, can’t be real. Remember our emotions are responses of our inner world meeting the outer world. Ultimately emotions are Love, Bliss and Clarity, according to Yoga and Ayurveda.  
Candace, a passionate neuroscientist, pharmacologist and biophysicist, innovatively sought biochemical links between consciousness and body.

Twenty years ago, in her deeply inspiring book The Molecules of Emotion, Candace revealed how emotions affect the entire biochemistry in of our bodies. Her extensive research led her to discover that emotions are the link between mind and body. More to the point, we are a bodymind.

Emotions change the electricity and chemistry of every single cell in our body, affecting how we feel, what we perceive through the five senses, how we react depending on what we perceive as most important.
This affects our tissues, organs and channels of mind. These filters, the cellular memory and innate intelligence of our body responds easily to the infinite changes.

These changes are recorded within the receptors of cells. When changes and experiences are not expressed or digested healthily, they become toxins, ama in Ayurveda. Toxic emotions build up in the unconscious, clogging mental channels of perception. Our ability to receive and accept the full power of Love behind every E-motion as an expression of free flow of Prana, depends on how conscious, embodied and alive we meet the outer world each time. 
Fortunately, science is slowly shifting. We now know that the body is the mind crystallized. The only sure thing in the material world is change. Science is catching up and affirms what Seers around the world have said for millennia. We have all we need within. 

How We Can Make the Shift

The innate intelligence of our body, what Yoga and Ayurveda call Prana, is a conscious force that moves through us knowing what it needs and how to heal. “We have a natural pharmacopeia already within us” Candace stated. We can inherently orchestrate our own healing process through knowledge and application of the practices.

Our body heals when our cells are healthy and clear. We can create the clarity and vibrancy on a cellular level, not just through healthy food and exercise. But by being conscious in relationships and connections with others. That outer relationship is a reflection of the inner relationship. How your cells communicate with each other. How they meet and greet, respond or react. 
That’s why yoga is so powerful. We learn to move our body, breath and mind with consciousness. We can connect to it, and to others. Yoga affects not just the connection with self, but with society and spirit. Connection, relations are our spiritual practice on this earth.
The connectedness we feel of bodymind profoundly changes our emotions into positive states. We’re literally removing old memories from cellular filters. 

These filters affect our thoughts, perceptions and experiences. And we in turn can create new filters any time we choose to make that effort. We can awaken our e-motional state, energy in motion. This energy movement within and through our cells and organs, directly affects our bodymind, and this impacts our energy levels.

A Two-Way Stream 

We can also use our body to change our biochemistry through posture, muscular engagement, to affect our emotional and mental state. We can reverse engineer, we can create the energy level we want. We can let ourselves feel down, relaxed or uplifted, anger, excitement or enthusiasm, contentment, detached or disappointment. 

Emotions are the key to uplifting ourselves and our energy levels. And the way we use our body language, the parts of our body we activate, or soften, will affect how we feel and change our energy levels directly and effectively. 
It does take practice. Like anything in life we need to attempt it many times to become good and feel and see its effects. But this simple technique can be used daily, until you start to integrate that mental awareness, emotional activation and bodily engagement in daily activities and life.

Try it

Sit down, let your body relax, even slump. Let your head sit unintentionally, slightly disinterested. Don’t try to be embodied, rather be disembodied, be in your head.
Now say to yourself, “I feel alive, vibrant, I do everything with joy today!”
How do you feel?
Do you feel alive and vibrant? 
Did you feel you change in the physiological state a flow of energy?
Does this generate a good feeling or uplifted energy?

So a simple stance, or lack of it, let’s our energy run down and out, and it’s not going to give us that vibrancy or upliftment, we actually seek in our waking state.

Now to be empowered means we have power to affect and claim our part in the play of life. And for Yoga to be empowering we need to first know where we are, where we want to arrive at through our practice and what practice will get us there.
So an easy and effective way is to tune into what you’re feeling at this moment. 

Stand up in Mountain pose, plant your feet firmly on the floor, connect to the Earth’s abundant energy supply. Feel the front of your body awake, alive and open, ready to receive that flow of energy. Let the back body soften but with an intent to receive energy.
Now be embodied, feel the sensations in your body, the amazing flow of life moving through you to your head. 
Let the mind be reflective like a lake, awake and clear with intent. Now say to yourself, “I feel alive, vibrant, I do everything with joy today!”
How do you feel?
Do you feel alive and vibrant?
Do you feel you changed the physiological state?
Does this generate a good feeling or uplifted energetic state?

It’s really simple.
Now if the difference wasn’t so big, that’s ok, you just need a little practice. 
If we have a habit of letting or energy run down and out, we just need to swim upstream a few times and turn the current around.
With practice anything is possible.

Joy doesn’t come to a lucky few, it comes through practice and preparation, understanding and opportunity coming together like old friends.

Now its your turn to take this into the world.
Leave a comment below and tell us how it will change your current situation.

Much Love,


Soul Warrior, the Journey of Empowering Ourself

Soul Warrior, the Journey of Empowering Ourself

The Soul Warrior is the ultimate journey of all humans. It is the transformation of our physical self seeking power in the world to becoming an empowered being.

Finding that power within.

Feeling, standing and living IN-our-own-POWER. Living lives that come from our own sense of worth, courage and confidence.

The journey of the Soul Warrior, is one we’ll all one day have to make.

It’s the classical Hero’s quest we have to take part of at some point.

Like Frodo in the Lord of the Rings, there are so many moments we fight and are driven by our passion, only to want to give up. We deny the reality of our situation, or we pretend we don’t know what is being asked of us. Again and again, we are stumped, stuck, shot, surrounded, struck and shocked. How many times are we surprised, surrounded by companions ready to help, satisfied and successful, only to find we are not at the end of the road?

Like the heroines Malala Yousafzia, Rosa Parks, Annie Bessant, Mary Wollstonecrafts, Queen Elizabeth I, Rani of Jhansi, MiraBai, Boadicea, and Hypatia, we all have to face the powerful shadows of our, and others,’ psyche. We will be forced to face the most horrendous demons, forces and situations. We will be challenged to the point of exhaustion. We’ll be asked to take fearless, faithful and brave steps, not with blind trust, but with our eyes wide open. We’ll be asked to surrender our lives, to walk the plank and trust the Divine plan that only we can make and the path we must walk. We’ll need a mind crystal clear, strategic and discriminating to assure our successes in this mythic world.

My Soul Warrior path is like many lives rolled into one. It has had me turn around many times and question, how did I get here?! Sometimes I joke I’m like a cat with nine lives. The transformations seemed sufficient to me, but Life always has another plan. I walked that plank and dived into the Deep Blue and swam an ocean few. I climbed up mountains, lived in forests, wrestled with demons and God knows how many times I’ve died only to be reborn.

From this journey we distill the wisdom from our wounds. From this path that only we can walk, we live the Dream that only we can dream and breathe life into. From this vision and project, we create a world worth living in, for our Soul and the Souls of all our children, sisters, brothers and parents.

My battles, and eventual victories, with lack of self esteem, depression, anxiety, anorexia, bulimia, and drug abuse, have made me the inspired, courageous, honest, deep, strong, empathetic, caring, understanding and empowered person I am today.

I believe all people have the right and the ability to be empowered beings! And I know that understanding Ayurvedic principles and applying them to Yoga and daily living is the key to transform a practice from feel good, to Empowered!

Only an empowered person has the congruency and capacity to empower others. We can only teach what we know. The deeper we go the more we grow.

Here is a practice in Honour of the Warrior within You!

Enjoy, Embody, Empower and Embrace!!

Walk the path only You can.

Namaste and till next we journey together, Shira.

Manifesting our Dreams by Daring to Prosper!

Manifesting our Dreams by Daring to Prosper!

Namaste dear beautiful, bountiful and brilliant All!

I have finally taken the plunge!

I finally dare to reach out, to take and to receive!

I finally dare to admit to myself I have desires and want to manifest them!

Thanks to the work of Molly Birkholm, Judith Anodea, Ashley Turner, Tama Kieves, Stephen Covey and Sheo, the circumstances of my life have taken a 180 turn around journey.

I honour the deep desire to prosper and live abundantly, without feelings of guilt, shame or superficiality. And I finally dare to believe there is enough for all of us!

I choose to live an empowered life!

I finally dare to step into those New Shoes!

The shoes I always pretended I didn’t see, or thought were too BIG for me. Too afraid, too lacking in self worth and confidence, I saw myself as too inexperienced. Under the pretension of being ‘spiritual’, identifying with the Self, I swept myself under the carpet. But truth be told, I was afraid to face certain aspects of life…

Since one year I have been working through many vital aspects inclusive to living in this world as a whole person, rather than a ‘spiritual’ one. Money, success, business, home, failure, commitment, my desire for, as well as my fear all of these essentials. I never once thought to include, honour or embrace these aspects of living as a part of the Whole that I was so diligently trying to realise! To be totally honest, I had completely ignored these aspects for the greatest part of my adult life!!

Reflected back to me was my lack of ability to respond to these aspects of life. While a superstar in Vedic knowledge, discipline in practice and study, healthy living, a genuine compassion for all life, no desires for material objects and totally devoted to teaching yoga, I was a complete drop out when it came to earning a living with my passion, expertise and knowledge.

I imagined the abundance of universal Prana from my spiritual practice, devotion and discipline would naturally flow into prosperity in this material world! Without actually having to take material steps

Well that’s all it would remain, imagining, if certain and specific steps weren’t acted upon…

Reading Siddharta, Autobiography of a Yogi and The Way of Zen at age 15, my only desire was to become enlightened. After 20yrs of this desire, a mind blowing experience of enlightenment wasn’t enough. ( Scarcity mentality?) Self-realisation was the end of the road, my relentless and unceasing desire for spiritual blessings and bliss, became a latent desire for more, a Vasana of scarcity, spiritual ‘advancement’.

For years, I never stopped to question where it was taking me, and what my life actually looked like from another perspective and posture.

When I was ultimately forced to face my present place in the world, I was turned upside down, inside out and back to front. I saw it, loud and clear. I’m sure if you saw my face in that very moment of brutally honest realisation, this fellow being embodies my feelings spot on!


Reflected back was a wise, worried, tired, wild woman of 43 who never in her life asked for help. The warrior who moved from place to place for education and perfection of a very important part of her life. But was that aspect a vital foundational part of her present-moment-life in this experience of planet, right now?

Now a single mother living with her mother and daughter in a tiny appartment, with no permanent home since 4 yrs, no visa, no work, no school for her child!! What is vital, what is real, and what is really vital?

A failure in the eyes of the many, lost in the eyes of others, free and wild to some, trusting and brave to my former self. The Fool, curious and in awe, ready for another adventure, carefree and young.

But what did it mean to the ‘me’ I am now?

What does it say about my choices in life? What is this teaching my daughter if our wellbeing, wellth and satisfaction with Life is not centre stage? What is the underlying mindset of this experience? How could a mind and body so often flooded with bliss, knowledge and deep devoted practice end up here!??!

So, what was the universal and divine Guiding Light telling me?

I realised I had charged my scarcity mentality!

Never enough practice, never enough bliss, never enough insights, never enough to give my students, never enough knowledge to guide them safely, deeply and inspirationally!!!

I saw these were the intentions I had after my everyday practice these last 3 years.

Through Asana practice we create a clean, strong and receptive vessel of Prana, through Pranayama we fill that vessel with individual Prana, through meditation and Mantra we charge the mind with Prana in a certain form or of a certain quality. But what if after our practice we focus on the desire for more understanding, more to share, more whom to share it with?

I unknowingly created a charge of wanting, lack, scarcity…

And that scarcity mentality slowly leeked into every aspect of my mind and life.

I didn’t see money as a river of condensed energy flowing through our lives. Or success as a deep sense of satisfaction that lives through acting in accord with our Souls desire. Nor business as manifesting our desires into realities to touch the lives of those we love and others who cross our path.

Namaste, Shira, wake up!

Time to get up and act out what you came here to do.

Once we know that we have desires, we can take charge and turn our Prana from wanting, to a feeling of already having what we so long for. For in our desires lie our deepest yearnings and our unique gifts. That gift that only You came here to share with the world.

Know Your desires, be honest about them, honour them. It doesn’t make us less spiritual. They will lead you to the joy, satisfaction and bliss in both worlds. Find their essence and bring them into the world!

Now that I have seen the full extent and power of intention, visualisation and the charge of Prana we create through our practice. I create a magnet not for what I want, but rather for all the abundance I already have. I have a roof over my head, I have food every day, such luxury. I have a beautiful daughter, and a loving mother, I have amazing friends and students that shower me in loving words and thoughts. I have this amazing body, mind and soul that daily offer me infinite paths, ways and perspectives to opportunities and possibilities.

When the focus is on All That Is, we attract That.

Each and every single moment in our lives there is a window, a doorway, or a flooding river we can walk into and Be part of. In that rushing, we can choose to feel prosperous and abundant, or lacking. We can let the Prana flow into that desire. For Desire is the essence of Life itself!

Desire is Devi!

Devi is the infinite Will to Live, Give and Thrive. To come alive and bloom in a bounty of beautiful forms an brilliant minds. She knows no bounds, she lays no claims and desires all her children to know her bounty. It is our fears and doubts that hold us, and the world, back.

By knowing, directing and seeing the opportunites for our abundance and being grateful for All That Is, in all, we grant Devi entry into our lives, into our loves and into the Light of our minds!

Manifest your deepest desires!

Honour yourself. That is the deepest respect you can pay to the world, and yourself. No one can walk your walk or talk your talk. No one can change the world the way You want to see it transformed. Only you know that Dream. Only You can bring it to life.

Only You can breathe Life into the desire that was born when your Soul came into being with its first breath.

Declare, I dare to dream BIG and I belief I can do it!

I have the freedOm to choose, to love, to act.

So, be the change You want to See!

Now, I don’t just want to inspire you. We need to act. I want to give you some clear tips or ideas how to start this process. We still need to dream, see the vision, and create it by taking the small steps each and every day to work toward making that dream a Manifestation.

For such a long time I truly believed the simple notion that, if you practice devotedly and diligently, all you seek will come as you clear your Karmic garden and the world will pour its grace upon you. You probably believed this, or still do.

And it does, but not without clear actions and planned steps to pave the way. To manifest it and make it a reality, we need to take action.

Here are six steps that are helping me on my way.

1 Dream BIG 

Through first tuning into our Heart of Hearts, listen to its’ message, its’ song. Asking your heart and your deepest sense of self, what does our Heart need to be truly happy. Meditate, reflect, contemplate. Then to feel it, sense it, taste it, hear it, touch it and let it slowly become a vision. This process allows imagination to move through the Fire element, into a real Vision. This might take weeks, months or years. Maybe you already know what it is. If not, What in the world really motivates you to change, to do better? What cause speaks very poignantly to your Heart? Know that by stepping into your New Shoes, you are not just uplifting yourself and your life, but all the lives of those who you love, all those who you exchange small parts of your life with, and the world at large will benefit from You stepping up and being brave enough to make a change, no matter how BIG or small.

2 Take it from a Vision and Make it into Manifestation 

By writing down your Dream, you turn it from etheral to something 2D on paper. Something you can hold and see becomes real, something others can look at, read and comment on. You too can read, reread, and yes rewrite, how this Vision or Dream can manifest through further steps. Share it with others, get their feedback, by speaking and hearing others ideas, we manifest it through the space element. And then as you find people who do support your idea, let these friends hold you accountable. Tell them what you want to get done this month or week, and ask them to check up on you to make sure you did it.

3 Take 3 Steps Toward it Everyday  

Make what you wrote down in step 2 into a plan. See how you need to break it down into smaller steps over a year, month or week, depending on your plan, so that it doesn’t just stay as some wishful fancy. See who, what and where you need to enagage. Break it into even smaller steps that you can take every day. Just start with 3 small things that move you toward your goal, day by day, step by step. Sometimes just writing an email, making a phone call, researching the subject, connecting with others motivated or moving in that direction. Set yourself a set time each day to do each thing, so you don’t waste time or procrastinate. Be realistic, be honest and keep the ball moving. If you leave it too long too often, you will doubt either your ability, your drive, your motivation and your gift.

4 Focus on the Positive and Stay Motivated

Know that you can do this. Don’t give up. There will always be the inner critic giving you ample opportunities to give up, to doubt, to minimalise, to belittle or laugh at your efforts. Do it anyway. But focus on how good you feel when you see this coming alive little by little. Focus on the end in mind. Every day when you do your thing be happy with them, pat yourself on the back. A to do list is ok, but not motivating. Better is an overview of what needs doing, write it down for the whole week, and when some of the things you wanted to do are done, put a big smiley face next to it. Leave it up all week, be happy, proud or and feel satisfied. Treat or reward yourself after a week, month or term of working towards your Dream. And be grateful for what ever arises on your path. Know that good or bad, it is not the outcome we aspire for but the changes we make to ourselves and our lives as we go through this process. It will refine and ultimately reshape your Dream to fullfill your Deepest Life Purpose.

5 See Failures and Rejections as Necessary Steps 

Be prepared for the negative responses, rejections, people calling you a dreamer, or absolutely no responses at all. There will always be people who doubt your ability, usually because they unknowingly doubt their own ability to manifest their dreams. There will always be people who think you can’t do it. Do it anyway. There are two kinds of people in our lives when it comes to motivation, those that inspire and uplift, or those that don’t. Find and bring people into your life who inspire you, hang out with those that uplift, not those that love to cut your wings off before you even try to fly. Any Any failure is just a step to show you that that’s not the way for this project. Any falls, show weakness, and also the places where you need to spend more time, energy or get some advice from someone who has done it before. Know that people love to share their success stories, don’t be shy or think you are not worth their time. And rejections to your plan will happen, many times. For every YES! there will be at least ten NO!s, so see each NO as success, now there are only 9 to go 😉 Build your confidence by accepting these experiences as stepping stones. Do practices that build confidence.

6 Don’t do it Alone

Last but not least, don’t do it alone. Speak, share and invite others. If there is no interest from others, either the dream doesn’t effect others lives because they are not looking at life in the same way, and you need to speak to different people. Or, you need to look if this Dream has potentials to benefit others as much as yourself. Or maybe the way you present it isn’t speaking to other people. Again, look at finding those who will support you, physically, emotionally, mentally or financially. Don’t be shy. Try. Try, again.

Isn’t that what Yoga is all about? If at first you do not succeed, try try again. Why is Yoga a practice, because you will never get it absolutely wonderful the first time. That is why we have so many wonderful teachers. So many amazing teachings. Because what speaks to me today might not tomorrow. And so again, see and ask “Do I have a scarcity mentality about Yoga?” About the teachings, the teachers, the demand for more yoga taught in diverse ways at diverse levels of being, seeing, thinking and feeling? Do you believe there is enough for all of us?

If not why do you think that? Go deep into the question and se where it leads you! And be happy and grateful to yourself for doing so!


My Declaration to Prosper!

I release myself from the heavy net, debri and entanglements that have restrained, suppressed and led to my struggling with my self, my life and dragged down my essential affluence. That river of abundance and joy that flows from the very centre of my being, with every single beat of my heart.

I no longer hold myself back, no longer willing to feel small or unworthy. I choose to Shine. I choose to awaken and enliven all whose path crosses mine. So they too see, feel and know the Beauty, Bounty and Brilliance we all Have and Are!

I release my Soul, my consciousness and mind from the tethers and trappings of the threathening Doubter, the Fearful Know It Alls’ voice. Instead I hear my inherent and integral Hearts’ voice of honey. It speaks of Belief, Bounty and the birthright of Fullfillment dwelling within each moment of full Presence. This Voice who sees beyond the parts and knows the Whole as a Journey Full of Wonder.

From this very moment of now I allow myself to feel fully alive, prosperous and exuberant!

I allow myself the freedom and richness of self expression in absolute confidence, without denying others their essential fullness and satisfaction. I hold a warm fearlessness that welcomes and beckons all to stand in their daring sweet self.

I am willing to step into a new, fresh innocence of the unknown self, ready to walk into a world where wonderful things come with ease. No longer do I pay heed to the persuasive painful put downs of shame, guilt and criticism. I no longer need to play out the ascetic or the puritan, nor the martyr or authority. Spreading my Prana too thin, in the unrestrained pursuit of expanding consciouness, I cut my Hearts wings with an unreachable aim of ‘becoming pure’.

I no longer need to justify my fundamental richness. I choose to spread my wings instead! I fly into the sky of brilliant bounty of potential and dive into the sea of sparkling bubbles of sufficient satisfaction.


The Journey Begins

[vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]Thank you for joining me in this adventure!
So here I go again. Another dive into the wild waters of change.

Another journey of seeking the right space that aligns with my core values, whilst living as best as possible attuned to the purpose of my life.

Again leaving a country to live in another. Once more leaving behind the beautiful and dear friends, family and community that began to grow of its own accord, due to Life’s grand design. A plan so great we have no way to fathom it from where we stand. Especially when the waves are wild, and the current strong.

We can only accept our fate as a fish that can’t fly.

Once more to meet new friends, and dear old ones, connect with people, discover another school for my daughter, be part of a new culture and create another community of fellow friends who seek meaning and a positive way to express that, a Sangha.

I have just done this thrice in the past 4 years, and I am actually tired. As I get on, a little, I begin to find this arduous. Whereas before this was the zest of my life. Change, adventure, challenge and meeting the new with enthusiasm and a passion.

But these last 2 years I become so highly Vattic, so imbalanced, to say the least. The moving, meeting old and new, brings up so much doubt, insecurity and a sense of loneliness amongst so much familiarity. Lately I feel relationships seems so disconnected and distant. Not just new ones, but even very close family ones. Instead of connection, being linked so that energy, warmth, understanding and true compassion, can flow.

Is it just me, I wonder. Did I do or say something wrong? If so, why don’t people just adress it? Or are there many of us feeling this way, and just pretending it’s all normal? Sometimes it all seems so insane. Then I go back to the question ‘Is it just me’?

Or is this the way life is going while we consume an “all is well, as long as I am well” attitude, or is it just an evolutionary small but steep bump in the road? Is it my attitude?

There is one thing I have discovered in this 43 years of being very self-willed, diligent and to be honest, a little self-righteous, that the mind and will can only get you so far. Sometimes the will will not help you out. And you can get yourself stuck into a very tight and lonely spot. Doing it my way, all alone, all the time.

At a certain point I came to a total collapse. A burnout. Actually, this has happened twice in my life. Both times I was going full steam ahead with what I felt intuitively wasn’t good for me, but for some unreason, I could not let go of this willful steering wheel either.

Eventually I came to a total dead end, physically, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually. All was black. The light within me had dwindled these last 2 years, as it had done 15 years ago. I saw it get smaller.

I thought it was necessary, work hard, struggle and suffer, just like the rest of most of my fellow humans.
But this winter the light was gone. I felt nothing. And as a Yoga teacher I felt like such a hypocrite teaching and guiding others to their inner light when mine was non-existant! Not only was it gone, I was a liar!

But as I spent days in nature with my daughter trying to be as present as possible, and to connect to this source that had once filled my whole mind and body, I finally succumbed to surrendering. To letting go of all that had taken so long to grow, the friends, commmunity, my childs amazing school and her funny loving friends, and reconnecting with my family from childhood. I learned immense things there, I felt that the connections we allowed to grow and strengthen have healed many wounds on both sides, not just family but also friends.

Yet here I was standing in a forward bend, head between my legs. Completely depressed, burnt out, trying to let go. When all of a sudden the symbolism of the position made me realise- if I just let it all go, if I just open up to going backward, not forward. Actually letting go and turning around. Instantly a faint light came and it flowered. My Heart began to come alive again. The light is still tiny and my cup do not runneth over yet, but it is slowly filling up again.
Now I never have had such a clear message.

I played with this insight for weeks. 3 days trying to make it work to stay, to find a way, and 3 days of letting go and starting it all over again. Well on the days that I decided to stay, I met unkind people, things went awry, I realised I was reluctant. On the days I decided to leave, people were kind, helpful, life went smoothly, my spirits were up.
This is when the unconscious speaks to us. When we are very focused on the subject we are dealing with we realise what our reluctance is about. What is it that we are doing that we actually don’t want to be doing anymore? The unconscious is coming into the conscious mind.

Horray! I am moving forward. Yet this also leads to more questions about choices and patterns. There is also an immense feeling of failure. Non completion, running away, repeating past patterns that have not been digested or transmuted.

Even though this was a clear message, it is still scary to let go of everything that has been lovingly tended, nurtured and encouraged to grow. Can I do it again?

How can we best discover the wisdom and strength from our difficult past experiences? Which at present feel like wide open wounds. No matter where I am, there they are.

Yet through writing and speaking with friends about my past, present and future, I slowly start to see and understand the underlying gift. The jewel manifests where our experiences reveal what is left after the waves have calmed. When the water is still, we reflect and the light of our consciousness frees this pattern. Releases this shadow from our unconscious.

Whoever says spirituality is for the light hearted has not a clue of what he speaketh!
And the travels we all go through to find our purpose, our meaning, our jewel to offer in this world, are never for nothing.

I have found that the practice of Yoga is my place of reflection everytime, no matter how high and rough the waters are. Understanding through my own body, mind and heart. A journey that churns my being, to reveal the only thing that always remains there waiting for us. Because the gold that remains after all base metal has been alchemized, lights up from within each of us. That transmuting of ignorance into wisdom, the alchemy of changing dark to light, can be a space we hold open for each other.

The way is not always easy or fun, and surely not tempting, yet like Bob Marley said so simply, “You can run, but you can’t hide”.

What experiences have you distiilled into gems?

Write them down look at your suffering and the patterns that bring it about, find what life is trying to tell you. Free that small part of shadow or darkness, shine your light of consciousness.

What is your wisdom path?

And it is this precious element I wish to discover with you.

Much Love,